I have to win!!!

I have a problem. I have to win. Seriously. I just cannot accept losing in any way. Its probably a result of my upbringing.

As a kid I would watch my beloved Montreal Canadians kick butt. I remember Guy Lafleur skating down the right wing, wind up for a slap shot and then seeing the red light behind the goal.

Then as a teenager in drum corp competing at individuals and winning gold, then the world championships with the Cadets of Bergen county when I turned 20.

But then things started to get a little obscure. Getting a good job, buying a car. Finally meeting and marrying Marianna. It wasn't so black and white anymore. There was no judge or teacher to say "good job." Well if you don't count my wife.